I'm probably gonna cry. Every day. It could be just because I'm on my period, or it could be because I really do feel this way. Either one hurts like hell though.
Its not even a big deal though. Yeah, I'm going camping for two weeks. Big deal. Well it is a big deal. This is the last summer I have as a child. Next summer I will be preparing for college and so will everyone else I know. Whenever I look around, I see everything I will be leaving behind. Yes, I still have a year. That is probably where the hormones are kicking in. The thing that is making me the most upset is the fact that 'nobody' gets why I am homesick. I am homesick for going away for 2 weeks. I am homesick because after that its only another 2 weeks and school starts again. I am also homesick because I wont see Joey until a couple days before I leave. But I feel like 'nobody' gets it. Sure he will be there when I get back, but for some reason it still scares me. Everything scares me. But like everything that scares us, we have to push through it.
Hopefully I will have the best 4th of July / 17th birthday celebration ever. I hope that once I am camping, I will forget the sadness, and by the time I get back, I will be anxious to start school again like I always am at the beginning of the year. I truly hope. I also hope I'm just upset because of the abnormal balances of estrogen in my system.
Its not even a big deal though. Yeah, I'm going camping for two weeks. Big deal. Well it is a big deal. This is the last summer I have as a child. Next summer I will be preparing for college and so will everyone else I know. Whenever I look around, I see everything I will be leaving behind. Yes, I still have a year. That is probably where the hormones are kicking in. The thing that is making me the most upset is the fact that 'nobody' gets why I am homesick. I am homesick for going away for 2 weeks. I am homesick because after that its only another 2 weeks and school starts again. I am also homesick because I wont see Joey until a couple days before I leave. But I feel like 'nobody' gets it. Sure he will be there when I get back, but for some reason it still scares me. Everything scares me. But like everything that scares us, we have to push through it.
Hopefully I will have the best 4th of July / 17th birthday celebration ever. I hope that once I am camping, I will forget the sadness, and by the time I get back, I will be anxious to start school again like I always am at the beginning of the year. I truly hope. I also hope I'm just upset because of the abnormal balances of estrogen in my system.
